everything is changing..

my grandma died last august and it is the first death i can remember having to deal with. well every fourth of july of my life my dad has taken me down to this parade and then we would go get ice cream and later on that day we would go to this carnival and ride, rides and then watch fireworks but this year my friends dad took me and my friends down to the carnival and i didn't get any ice cream. my dad told me he would come down later to watch the fireworks with us though. it was only sprinkling out and my dad calls and says he is going to pick us up and that we weren't going back down for the fireworks so i was upset for the rest of the night. we ended up sitting on my neighbors roof to watch them but i was crying my eyes out because for one my dad knows how much it means to me to be down at the carnival watching them and for two, i'm really short so i could hardly even see them over the trees. i know the only reason why my dad didn't want to go down to the carnival was because my grandma isn't there anymore, and i know he is upset about it but i know she wouldn't want us to stop doing things we love jsut because she has past away.